For the past few weeks, I’m making myself crazy. I’m angry with myself and that makes me frustrated all the more!
I don’t know what I want and it’s causing so many problems in my life. I decided to be selfish and live for myself but then realized that I don’t know WHAT I WANT! I don’t know what I want! I DON’T KNOW WHO I AM!
I’m being too hard on myself and I’ve been punishing myself for all the mistakes that I’ve made. But I’m also hindering myself to move forward.
I am stuck. I am 25 - relatively young but I’m stuck!
Right now, I’m jobless and loveless. This is very depressing.
I can’t actually get myself to find a job because my previous one seemed to have sucked all the confidence and drive in me. I can’t build up enough courage to go job hunting. I’m afraid of rejection and uncertainty which is not a good thing especially if you need to have a job!
I’m loveless and it’s my fault. I’m so afraid of falling that I can’t lift my feet from the ground. Someone was there. I was almost certain that he’d catch me but I got scared. Right now, I’m not sure if he’s still there which makes me scared all the more.
So, you see, I’m messed up right now. I think I know what I should do but I’m overcome by fear and I can’t get myself to do it. This is crazy! Someone please help me because I’m stuck.